There are so many things to say to you my dear Scottie.
I remember meeting you at the bottom of my stairs for the first time and thinking how cute you were... until you spoke how much you could bench press :) I am so grateful I called you back. I am so grateful you gave me a chance even though I was stuck up. I am grateful you were patient with me and my determination to not kiss until we knew each other better. I remember how much fun you were in high school. As much as I didn't show it, I can now admit that all I really wanted was to to be with you.
I remember saying goodbye to before you left for the hardest two years of your life. St. Geroge was more than just a trip before you left. I remember crying over letters, and dating those who were constantly compared to you. No one could make me laugh like you did. I remember you coming home the first time and and wishing so much that I could take away your pain. I remember our final phone conversation before you had to go back knowing it was the right thing, but probably the hardest thing you had to do- go back to what you knew. I remember Mother's Day before you coming home and you sweetly reminding me that everything would be ok. I remember you coming home the second time and grateful you didn't notice my pizza face! Above all, I remember the little letters at the end of each letter while you were gone.
I remember the hard ups and downs in college. Do I go or do I stay? Does he love me? All I wanted to do was be with you. I am so grateful for your patience, constant love and friendship. I am grateful for you never giving up.
I remember the moment we realized it was time. How can I forget the amazing rap and one knee? And, man oh man seeing that ring for the first time! I remember not being able to sleep that night, looking over at my left hand and thinking, how could I be so lucky to marry him?
I remember the night before we got married. So much dancing, great food, beautiful flowers, amazing band, and a good looking guy in a tux who knows how to move to Michael Jackson. I then knew that the rest of my life I would never have a dull moment. I remember seeing you at the temple before we got married- terrified. White face. It wasn't until the Celestial Room where I felt peace. I remember our sealing- things said that are far too sacred to write. How grateful I am to be sealed to you for eternity. I cannot imagine myself with anyone else.
I remember the first year of marriage. Pure bliss. Poor as can be, but never happier. That summer was incredible full of fun trips- Washington DC, Lake Powell, Park City, Alaska. Fall was incredible with horseback riding and awesome costume parties. School sucked, but I remember getting through practicing so I could come home to be with you. I can now admit that I look forward to your long hugs, as much as I resist.
I remember our first anniversary. You try so hard to be romantic and for that I am grateful. It means more to me than you know. You are so sincere. I remember dates to the melting pot, surprises that could not be kept secret, and lots of laughing.
How can we forget the amazing trip to Europe? I was so grateful to have my companion by side experiencing this with me. How grateful I am to you for your willingness and excitement- it made it so much more fun.
I remember the stress of recitals. Lots of tears, lots of listening. I remember coming to you on multiple occasions for a hug to get through it. Thank you for your patience and support. You never left my side and heard more practicing and pre performances than I can count.
I look back and realize how much I love you- how long I have loved you and how grateful I am that I have the opportunity to spend eternity with my best friend. I love you Scottie. You are my light, my crutch, and lets be honest... my better half.
Age 16
then...
... now.
Happy 25th Sweetie.
I love you.
